the rain has stopped for a while now. :)

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Happy Youth Pledge Day!

let's do our best to keep on improving without losing our true selves. good luck, everyone. :)

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so, yeah, this noon, the clouds were finally fading slowly before leaving another white scenery: a view that had been hiding from my visual diary for what seemed like a really long while. and I don't know why... but it sure has always been a joy for me to watch the little attraction they put: something that, I think, really worths the sacrifice; something that really wakes my mind.

well... I gotta say that I was watching them while trying to keep my ears safe from the faithful follower of the light; and I just... erm... found it not as enjoyable as watching them in their authentic rhythm... sorry...

in the end, it's always been nice to be able to see them. :)

-sigh- if only the corridor wasn't wet and a little crowded, I think I wouldn't mind to stand and just... observe.

and... a lot of things had actually been thought, but some seemed to fade away just now... -sigh- I think all I need is to feel the moment again, so I can relive those self-interpretations; so I can, maybe, put them into one of my fictions.

well, actually, I've been working on three different chapters of whirlwind right now; and the latest one has something to do with rain. so, I think I'm going to dig deep into myself again and do more experiments in that fic. ;) yeah, I really think I should; cause whenever I do those stuffs, I just feel like... myself.

heh, sorry if the way I start this post is a little... sad, I guess...? I don't know cause I'm actually feeling happy right now. :) I mean, I was kinda sad -and lost, apparently- back then and this post was actually going to be a lot more stressing... but, I decided to move everything I wrote yesterday into another post that I don't think I'll continue or submit at the moment. well... maybe, I even won't submit it at all. I'm not sure...

well, let's just say I don't think it's that important to note them here for the moment. so, hope you guys can understand. thank you. ;)

so... erm... yeah, if I'm allowed to tell, the sky is finally clear -around two PM- after about two hours of rain, I believe. :) and, haha, just like four years ago, the area around my school was flooded with water. and I can still remember that day: me and my mom walked really long to reach a less flooded area where my father is ready with his car. it tickles me a bit when I play it in my mind again. heh.

and today, the same thing happened. the school area is flooded again. but, this time, my mom can't pick me up. luckily, I don't have to walk that far cause I just took a motorcycle taxi -ojek, or whatever it's called in English-.

still, something hits me when I realized that the water is reaching my knees... and I just can't shrug that odd feeling away... I mean, four years ago, the water was like... as high as my waist, but now...

-sigh-

I guess it's true that I've grown a lot from that day... it's just hard to believe that it's already been four years...

-sigh-

anyway, what's probably funny is that the motorcycle taxi I'm on suddenly had a problem with the engine, so I have to continue my trip home by walking. and I actually don't really mind cause, even though the water is dirty, I found walking through the flood quite fun. I don't know why! 8D

...but, I guess it can be scary too cause I just don't know where the holes are and such things. the road where I walk is kinda broken, that's why...

and, heh, I'm so glad that I had the chance to walk, even for just a while and for just a short distance. it's really nice. ;)

-sigh- I think it's just amazing how people everyday can travel through that street -even work on it- without any footwear. I mean, just a small walk there and it already hurts when my feet stepped on the pebbles... hmm... I guess I'm just not used to not having my shoes on... and... again, it's just amazing how people can walk on that road everyday.

and... I'm actually not sure if I'm going to make it home or not, but there's this Sir and he offered me a ride. well, I was hesitating for a while, but I finally went into his car and he and the other Sir drove me to somewhere closer to my house. thank you so much, Sirs! X)

and then the motorcycle taxi driver showed up! well, it seems that he managed to fix his engine. yeah! ;D -kicked- so, after that, I just got back on the motorcycle taxi and went home safely. it's such a fun and tiring trip. I'm so glad I can experience it. thank you so much... X')

but yeah, the motorcycle taxi driver actually also asked me if I met my relatives and if the car I went into belongs to them... and then, I finally realized that I just got a ride from complete strangers! that's just... amazing! 8D -kicked- I mean, I'm a stranger for them and they still offer to drive me home...? -sigh- ...again, thank you so much, Sirs!

but, I guess it's true that it's not forever safe to go into a stranger's car and... well, you know...

good thing the one I went into are owned by really nice men. :)

and I'm so glad I finally went home; tired and happy. I must say that my right hand is shaking oddly -I think it's because I hold my shoes for minutes with it-, but I think it's calmer now. it still shakes a bit when I wrote the first few paragraphs of this post, but now I already can type as comfortable as usual.

and, haha, I really have difficulty eating my toasts -I'm so glad I can still have some to help me warm up :')- cause my right palm just shakes so hard whenever I reach for them. but, I think the hot tea -oh, thank you so much I can have tea again after a few days of not having it at all- my mom made really helped me out. thank you, Mom!

...well, I also know that all these stuffs are actually not serious and... well, it sure can sound really whiny to put all them here, but... I don't know. I just want to write them, I guess... so, I'm sorry if it does sound whiny... ^_^;

and about the rain, I think it just marks that the rainy season is about to come -or already came? I forgot what I learned in junior high; slapped-. and I really hope that the rain can give me as much muses as the clear sky. garsh... it's just so amazing to have them around. :')

also, I actually have this thought that singing in the rain is something really cool, like in Perfect or Untitled -both are Simple Plan's songs-. it just seems so... calming and sad and... I don't know. all I know is that I would love to do it, but I probably won't cause it's just something... out of the blue, I guess. haha. :D -slapped-

and... garsh... it's so fun to write all these. it's been a while since I posted long rants like this, after all... so yeah, it's really nice that I can do this again. heh.

and at first, I actually combined this post with a sketch of Nami I made during chemical class, but felt that it's best to just separate them. sorry for the confusion, guys... hope it won't happen too many times. thanks for understanding. :)

and it actually rains again when I started proofreading this. but, at this point, the rain has stopped. so, I think it's best if I post this now so that the moment suits the title. haha, me and my random mind. sorry... ;P

so, yeah, I guess that's all for this post... sorry for the grammar mistakes and thank you so much for reading, guys. hope your days are amazing! X)