wŏ bὺ tόng yὶ.

mood-wrecking post. feel free to skip or hit back now -really suggested for those of you that can't even stand my usual annoying nature-. thank you for any decision. :)

[pic is finished on August 4, 2012; posted on August 5, 2012]

"I don't agree."

I simply can't.

sorry, but I'm just too tired to tolerate. I just don't think I've learned anything from a certain person cause all he does are things that simply bother me until the edge of the world. and this may also be the burden that I've been having for around five years, so... I don't know.

but that time when he said that he's a quiet person back in his high school days -'pretty much like him', he said while pointing to me-, I just feel so furious and suppose he didn't say it at the end of the class, I might have the chance to cry on my desk that day.

I know it's not certain yet -that he's referring to 'quiet' and not my whole self- and this sounds extremely offending, but I just don't wanna be like him. I don't. I never do. please don't ever let me be. please...

and even though I may just not turn out like him -seeing how much I don't want to- and that my obligation to attend his class may just end next year, I somehow know that I will meet people like him again. and that's why, myself, I want you to try your best to be strong and to not let yourself alter from the path that you believe in.

and... erm, guys... sorry if you happen to read all this and feel unwell now. in this point, though, I wish that you guys can always handle people that might seem to frustrate you in life. hopefully you guys can keep struggling even though they make you suffer in any kind of level or any kind of way. sorry if I happen to be one of those people that you disgust. perhaps I am meant to be disgusting, after all; and perhaps that's the reason I don't like this person that some people seem to be okay with, too. -sigh-

I don't know... I'm just so confused tonight. that's why I'm really sorry for any broken feelings, mood, or anything, guys. I even deleted several paragraphs cause I think they're just too offending for this certain person.

still, thank you for hearing this out and sorry for any bad impact, everyone. I just need some place to throw this out to remind me that I can still handle someone whose mind and ways in life just disconnect with me like the way I -sort of try to- do now suppose I feel like it's sort of impossible in the future. :) thanks again, guys. hope for the best in your lives, too.