I need.

—to be better. for everyone, for myself. in a way that won't push me too hard. in a way that proves that I'm still trying despite all the mistakes and the person I've become. I need to. I need to. I need to.

so I'll try. -sigh- I'll continue to try.

and hopefully, all of you will, too. well, everything each of you are doing is already enough—so much more than enough—but I hope we all can still make an improvement in a way that won't make us feel pressured. -shrug- you guys are so amazing. thanks for being yourself. thanks for staying here despite whatever you've been through. thanks for your presence and how it simply, whether you realize it or not, helps or even saves other people's lives. thank you, thank you, thank you.

and from now on, everything will probably still be unsure. there will be some sad days and at those times you may feel alone or way too tired to put up a smile to convince everybody that there's no need to worry about you, but there will always be some happy days as well. days when you just can laugh and feel free. and if you're feeling so disconnected right now, please try to believe that you'll meet at least one person you can be completely honest with and that will accept you for the way you are someday, even if you think that you're such a mess inside, even if you don't think such person will ever exist in your life.

one day, you'll finally feel okay about who you really are. you've tried hard enough and that's a proof that who you are right now is not something to be ashamed of. I'm sure at least one people out there is relieved to know that there's someone like you in this world; that you're not just another thing that can simply disappear, that you're worth a lot more than you think.

so, then, let's keep giving our best, everyone.

with the blue sky, the rain, the words and sketches in my mind, hugs, laughs, all the important people, and the memories that will soon change from bad to some good ones, I know I still have a reason to keep going. I hope you still have some, too.

just... thank you for making it this far and good luck on continuing this really precious life of yours. may the future holds so many great days and chances for us to truly grasp happiness and find the truest meaning of our existence. thanks again and take care, everyone. :')