longing.

- to write and draw as much as I want to. hopefully they can at least mean something to someone. then, I'll know that I shouldn't stop doing them for both of them have helped me a lot in life.

- to smile and to be able to help more. that way, maybe everyone will smile, too. maybe then they'll realize that even though life is hard, there are still a lot of reasons not to give up on it. everyone has hope inside of them, after all. everyone matters. you, too. ;)

- to spend more time with people who meant a lot to me. although it's currently impossible, I would really love to have a family vacation somewhere. hmph. mom once said that her dream was actually to be a farmer. I think I'd be happy if it ever comes true. it'll be a job she'd love and living in a small village has always seemed nice to me, after all.

- to run away, mostly somewhere faraway: a place in my head where life is okay and as calm and beautiful as the sky above.

- to live. to finally live and accept my own mistakes; to always try to remember and believe that everything I've done is enough. cause no matter how broken everything gets, there'll always be something worth holding on for. you, too, have a lot of things to look forward to. go for it. cause no matter what happens, in the end, everything's going to be okay. really, really okay.