I really did.

[pic is finished on September 4, 2012; posted on September 8, 2012]

then again, even if it already seems like I didn't, chances are still given. chances and chances and chances. those that always made me wonder... why are people too nice that they still haven't stopped helping someone as fail as me?

yeah, I know myself that I've tried my best, but no matter what, everything just seems to turn out... -sigh- completely different from what I wish to. it's true. even the nightmare I had this morning, despite some illogical things, is beginning to look like a little piece of future I'll have at that certain place.

sorry, but... I've been feeling like already failing too many people to help me fix my own failure, especially for these last four to five months that are just... well... -sigh-

in the end, though, thank you for always helping me; for not giving up on me even though it seems like the cleverest thing to do. hopefully, I can help you guys too in the future. and if you happen to feel like you're troubling me when I offer those kind of help, no, you all have helped me too many times already which is clearly much more than what I can do someday. thank you, thank you, thank you. -sigh- and I believe this goes to everyone out there. thank you.

lastly, hope that you guys are feeling happy out there. and if you happen to feel down as well today, hope that it gets better. hope you get something too from that moment of sadness; like a chance to be more introspective or such. thank you for staying strong. :')