hey!

[pic is finished and posted on May 31, 2013]

...j-just what is quality? -sob-

erm, an old stuff, actually. been stuck half-finished for almost a year -cause I used mouse back then and I lost patience so easily- and decided to quick-color all the blank parts with drawing tablet today. as you can see, some parts seem very rushed and messy, sorry. and the background... -facepalm; sorry guys I'll try to draw a better pic of you guys someday, maybe-

and it seems like mouse helped me a lot in hiding my truly messy coloring, but then again it's just so tedious and I'm just a very lazy person, so... -facepalm again; sorry for you guys that have to see this; I'm a bit hesitant when I was about to post it, but...-

also, there are still lots of half-colored stuff in my folders right now. hopefully I can finish them without rushing like this. well, as for now, thanks, guys, for always visiting and supporting. have a nice day. :')

well, erm...

this finally came out and I just feel so excited and happy and... well... -shrug- wow, I just love these guys so much, okay. garsh, I think I'm gonna have a really nice sleep tonight. thanks, guys. :') I hope all of you kind souls will also have a nice sleep. thanks. bye. sorry for this sudden surge of excitement. I just... -melt-

deep inside.

"I know I don't deserve

another chance to finally make it work, but..."

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[pic is finished and posted on March 9, 2013]

disclaimer: Try © Simple Plan. -no detailed disclaimer cause it is, after all, a leaked song. -shrug-

I don't know why, but sometimes days just get so hard and it's actually almost everyday that I feel like giving up and running away somewhere. sometimes it's just so hard to believe in those sayings that 'things will get better' or that 'you'll amount something from this pain'. I actually still believe it. I'm just scared cause most of the times, those words don't bring me enough comfort anymore.

but you know what, today, I've decided that I'll try. again.

it has only been a week since I heard it, but this song is already a much help. and a lot of things, too. I just... no matter how much I want to, they make me can't give up yet. I need to be better. I need to be better. heh. didn't I say this a few weeks ago?

so, I'll try again. for all the people whom I love; for everyone in the world. thank you, guys. I hope you guys can go through any kind of problems you're having right now. if I can be of any help, then don't hesitate, really. remember that you and your problems matter, okay? ;)

...also, it's funny that it's only now that I realize there are a lot of mistakes in the gif, I mean, the lines at the shoulder and eyes between the transition somehow don't disappear wow I must have made some mistakes there, but I guess I'm gonna leave it this way, if that's okay. should learn to accept my mistakes better, too, so maybe starting with a small thing like this is a good thing to do...? heh.

I'm just... thanks, guys, for everything. I'm just so glad I can make it this far and also for you guys who are still here. starting from now, it may still be tough, but I hope you can always find a reason to go on. good luck and wish happiness for all of you cause you just deserve it, okay. :')

gone too soon.

[pic is finished on October 2011; posted on January 19, 2013]

disclaimer: Gone Too Soon © 2011 by Simple Plan and Emanuel Kiriakov; performed by Simple Plan.

...this song sure brings some deep memories. -sigh-

and not entirely sure about the day it's finished, but this sort-of-wordart is actually something that I personally feel happy to stumble upon again. there are actually some more old drawings that I managed to dig up, so I guess I'll be randomly posting some old works again starting from today. hopefully that's okay. heh.

as for now, thank you for checking this, guys. have a nice day. :)

bringing back some SP memories.

[pic is finished on January 17, 2012; posted on January 17, 2013]

sketched this during the first concert I went to exactly a year ago. obviously one of the coolest nights I've had and I just feel so lucky to... well, have the chance to see them live. honestly, they're just... -sob-

and it is, indeed, quite amusing how much these guys and their music have affected and helped me with my life. I'm glad for them and for all the astronauts cause I know you guys feel the same way.

thank you, Simple Plan. :')

I can wait forever.

[pic is finished on November 2012, posted on January 12, 2013]

"and I can't lie.

every time I leave my heart turns grey, and I;

I wanna come back home to see your face tonight.

cause I just can't take it."

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disclaimer: I Can Wait Forever © 2008 by Simple Plan; performed by Simple Plan.

distracting myself from studying for a while by posting something I finished several months ago. it's an assignment for art class and we're supposed to paint a clay mask using toothpicks after painting it all black first. and I just can't resist making Simple Plan-related painting for it, so... you can already guess from the picture. ;'P -stomped-

and... starting from last year, I began to like this song a bit more, I guess. was thinking of writing a fanfiction which idea was kinda inspired from it. hope it happens someday cause it surely would be nice, at least for me. heh.

well, thank you for visiting again, guys. I hope you're all doing well. :)

just around the corner.

"when you don't think you can take no more,

you might find what you're searching for

just around the corner, just around the corner."

—Simple Plan.

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[pic is finished and posted on October 31, 2012]

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"...perhaps, there would never be a land that could escape from her weary stare. perhaps."

.

disclaimers: Harvest Moon: a Wonderful Life © 2004 by Victor Interactive Software and Marucome, published by Natsume; Harvest Moon: DS © 2006 by Marvelous Interactive, published by Natsume. title taken from and listened mostly to Just Around the Corner © 2010 by Simple Plan; performed by Simple Plan while doing this. :)

the first scene -yeah, that short prologue, indeed- in whirlwind when Nami stared at the sky, right before the rain poured. thank you so much for this amazing tutorial that helped me a lot when I'm doing the background. I rarely practice any background, so... :'D

and... whirlwind... -sob; kicked-

haha. honestly I'm really happy with how this turns out. I mean, I know I still have a lot to improve, but I truly am happy with this pic here. I can't believe I finished something that could satisfy myself and I... well... thank you, guys, for checking this and... well... appreciating and... just thank you and sorry if this makes no sense I'm just happy. -stomped-

thank you again, guys! :')

crazy.

disclaimer: Crazy © 2004 by Simple Plan; performed by Simple Plan. feel free to watch the video here.

[pic is finished on August 7, 2012; posted on October 24, 2012]

of all the daily ponders of how people and things just went on their common way of making me believe that my mind is just too crooked to understand.

for me, even hundreds of verses can still be added to the song. hundred of verses can be told and one can treasure at least one of them. in the end, though, everything is still the same. it's still hard to understand. it just helps to know that, somehow, and one way is through this song, someone out there understands.

heh. this song has been really close to me late months -Simple Plan always writes songs that are close to my heart; I love them so much :'D; sob-. and, erm... yeah... of all the world's craziness, of how crazy people can get just to achieve something faint... -sigh- maybe I'm just too crazy that I fail to relate that much...

-sigh- hopefully there will be more understandable days for me in the future. and even if everything's already got so complicated, please... let me help.

so can I help?

-sigh-

"can anybody tell me what's going on?

tell me what's going on.

if you open your eyes, you'll see that something is

wrong."

I never could've seen this far.

"I never could've seen this coming;

it seems like my world's falling apart."

trying to prevent this excitement-based texts from being posted, but...

I failed. :'D

I failed, I failed, I failed. haha. and it's not a big deal, after all. I'm simply excited. I'm happy. all cause of this video. finally it's done and I just can't... well...

it was actually a quite low night for me, but then when I got home and saw that the video is finally available for viewing, I literally squeal and scream to the monitor, covering my mouth saying 'I can't, I can't' for how many times I don't even know. haha. I guess I'm just so excited, shortly said. :'D

and Chuck, why you have to be so... well... I can't... it's just... your acting is... I don't even know... I... well... thank you so much for the video and for making my day as always. I mean, Seb's ninja video, Pierre's day off, and now this. all and every other cool videos the guys do just to entertain and let their fans know how much they appreciate our love... I'm just... well... I love these guys so much, so sorry if this sounds too much like a big ball of fan's excitement but I'm so happy right now. these guys always make me happy in so many ways everyday and, well... definitely waiting for Jeff's and David's videos one day. :'3

as for now, the video is actually still not completely loaded -face-palm a bit-, but I surely can wait. it really worths the wait, after all. :') -start singing I Can Wait Forever's chorus; kicked-

also... erm, I think I'm a bit calmed down now that I've written a few paragraphs, but I have a feeling it won't stay for long once I resume the video. ;P -slapped-

so, yeah, just wanna say sorry for all the rant you have to go through, guys; especially for those who don't really know about Simple Plan, but... I, well... I just love them and look up to them -and somehow wish I could doodle the guys or some interpretation of their songs again now-, so... erm... -slowly melt-

[update - September 15, 2012]

watching the video again and... garsh... Chuck, your acting is just... it's good that you do look extremely OOC. -laugh-

anyway, I kinda failed to effort any drawing to sort of celebrate the guys' birthdays -all five of them; face-palm- this year, so just saying an early 'happy birthday' to Chuck here for the next Monday. thanks for starting the band and inspiring all of us astronauts, helping us with our lives, all the wonderful songs, and for everything. :')

...do you ever wanna run away?

[pic is taken and posted on September 6, 2012]

disclaimer: Welcome to My Life © 2004 by Simple Plan; performed by Simple Plan. link for the video is here.

don't even know why I'm feeling like this. so many things to be grateful of, so many amazing people and things around, but still... -sigh-

sorry, but life just seems a bit pressuring and messed up lately; at least to the point where I no longer think that I can be patient enough to live through it, so I... erm...

I need time.

I just need time.

[update - September 29, 2012 - messed up with the lyrics a bit, sorry... it's supposed to be 'that' rather than 'but', so... -shrug-]

...well.

[pic is finished on July 25, 2012; posted on August 8, 2012]

"do you ever wanna run away? do you lock yourself in your room with the radio on, turned up so loud; but no one hears you screaming?"

.

link for the video is here.

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disclaimer: Welcome to My Life © 2004 by Simple Plan; performed by Simple Plan.

I think I can still remember how I feel when I drew this... -sigh- but I know that such feelings won't be permanent, even though the memory can somehow be. might be something that can be connected to Austin, so that explains why he's in the pic, I guess...

well, apart from all that, what that kinda surprises me is the fact that right at this moment, I actually feel that I can get through a lot more than before. and this song will help me again; this band will help me for a lot more times I don't even think I can count them; and that's why despite my inability and limits, I wanna try my best to help others just like how they've helped and would always help me, too.

so... is everything okay tonight?

cause you know that it's always okay if it's not. and... -sigh- sorry if it's been hard... but hopefully you'll get through any problem you're facing right now. hope you can still remember that you're not alone at it even though sometimes it may feel so. but tonight, if you're not too hurt to care, take just one more step; and perhaps you'll realize that you still have the strength to take another step... and then another one, another one, another one...

-sigh-

thank you, really, for trying your best. thank you for welcoming happiness in your life. thank you for still being around and alive. thank you for existing. thank you for everything.

thank you.

jet lag doodle.

disclaimer: Jet Lag © 2011 by Simple Plan, Nolan Sipe, and Ryan Petersen; performed by Simple Plan. link for the video is here.

[pic is finished somewhere between October 2011 and April 2012; posted on July 31, 2012]

so, yeah, changed my mind about not posting this piece -another old work being posted; cheer-, although I sort of can't remember the exact time when I drew this, so... sorry...? :'D -slapped-

and... -sigh- it's already the end of the month, isn't it? -the case is that August usually acts not that nicely to me, as far as I remember; look down; I guess I'll just try my best; thanks for the help and support, guys; good luck with your lives, too-

well, simply, whatever happens out there, hope you guys have all the great time and did a lot of great accomplishments this month and can continue having and doing so in the next month. good luck and thanks for reading, guys. ;)

[update - November 4, 2012]

[pic is finished somewhere around September to November 2011; posted on November 4, 2012]

keeping this lyrics page here for safety. heh. ...well, that's about what I have to say. -slapped- thanks for viewing, guys. :'D

I have no idea what I'm writing. -slapped-

...so, erm... I seriously don't know what to write here. sorry. :'D -slapped again-

well, basically, school has been around for more than a week -I still can't get over holiday, it seems; look down- and I'm actually quite happy cause I managed to finish a couple of doodles along the way. will probably post one that I did today here and some others in separate posts, so thanks if you happen to put any interest in them. it really makes me happy. :')

talking about school, if I may share a bit, it's fun. well, of course there are times when I don't enjoy it that much, but overall I've learned quite a lot these last couple of weeks and -also- a couple of assignments even picked up my interest rather easily; one being biology and the other being art.

for biology... well, I need to plant some red beans -although I'm a bit worried at the moment because only four beans have sprouted when I actually need ten to start applying the variables as part of the scientific method; sob- and it's quite fun. I'm just sort of -actually, really- lazy when it comes to gardening stuff, sadly... it seems exciting on certain moments, but I kinda don't know how to grow plants properly, so... yeah, growing crops in Harvest Moon is definitely a lot easier. -sigh; why am I so whiny; sorry; plowed-

as for art... I have to make a logo or maybe a symbol! ;3 at first, the teacher actually asked if we want to do something like projection with some different shapes like square and all, but I'm glad that he changed the task into drawing a symbol instead. :'D I mean, even though it's still precise and all, it's just a bit more... dynamic, I guess. and that's something that I wanna try. heh.

anyway, I think the art assignment will be started next week, so I guess I'll just have to wait to discover how confusing it actually is. haha. today, the teacher just explained how to draw the base and then the bell for break time rings, so I sort of spend my break time to do a doodle of my own -way messier, raw, and unorganized- symbol.

and of course it's Simple Plan. ;P -kicked-

disclaimer: Astronaut © 2011 by Simple Plan, Jim Irvin, and Julian Emery; performed by Simple Plan. here's the link to the video.

[pic is finished and posted on July 25, 2012]

so... erm... sorry again for keep posting raw stuff like this, guys -I just post some that don't look that random or mean something to me, though-. might be posting more cause all of my 'planned' drawings are still laid unfinished in my folder. -sob-

...and yeah, I might just misuse the anarchy symbol there. just saw it in the album's booklet, so I guess I could give it a try since 'Astronaut' also starts in 'a'; or maybe I just like the design especially after -slight spoiler for the third season of Warehouse 13, so feel free to skip now!- seeing it being painted by the red paint artifact in one of Warehouse's episode, even though the effect that it has is really scary, in my opinion. I remember squealing and yelling the first time I watched it, even though my brother already accompanied me. ah, cool symbol but scary effect... what to do? :'D -kicked-

and the left part of the pic is cut because it's the edge of the paper. sorry for that... -look down- and, erm... I don't know... just thank you so much for the attention, appreciation, and time again, everyone. thanks for giving this blog a visit. :')

short to say, I'm quite curious of how the process of making the assigned symbol -so not this 'Astronaut' one, definitely- will turn out, so hope I can just enjoy it -and that my beans will grow fine; slapped- and that you guys can enjoy your assignments, too! ;3

and I probably need to do a language assignment right now, so another thanks for reading until the end, guys! ;)

P.S.: turns out I'll be learning Photoshop in computer class this year! -cheer- well, it is, indeed, the old version one and my friend did say that only a few computers in my school would probably work fine when it comes to programs with quite big size like this, but the fact that I rarely practice digital coloring sure needs a lot of this stuff around for at least one year ahead, so... -cheer again; kicked-

random doodles, really. :'D

[pic is finished somewhere between November 2011 and February 2012; posted on July 15, 2012]

disclaimer: the lyrics in the quotation marks are taken from This Song Saved My Life © 2011 by Simple Plan and Toby Gad; performed by Simple Plan.

found this at the back of my computer notebook; and actually thought to post only the small version of the guys at the left side of the pic -thinking of re-doing it if I have the time ;3-, but then feel like there's something missing, so ended up with the whole page instead. heh.

I actually have more SP doodles almost everywhere in my textbooks and notebooks -please don't torture me now, dear teachers-, but decided not to post them cause most are sort of random, even more than this. erm... I do have a Jet Lag and Save You doodle that aren't that random, in my opinion, but probably won't post them too for certain reasons, so I hope that's okay... :'D

anyway, sorry for the rawness -and even randomness, this time- again, guys. some of the next postings will have more raw sketches like this, so hope you guys won't mind. -stare blankly-

...still, garsh, I don't know. even though it's raw and all, this drawing is just... I don't know. I just... still feel the same thing that I write in this page and... Simple Plan, Simple Plan, Simple Plan! :'D -went crazy; slapped-

ah, yeah, thank you again for viewing this, guys. hope you have a great and happy time now. -melt-

beyond the crowd.

disclaimer: Holding On © 2008 by Simple Plan and Arnold Lanni, performed by Simple Plan.

[pic is finished and posted on May 19, 2012]

...just happy to be home.

cause after all, today has been filled with a lot of interesting things; what seemed to be simple to most people and complicated in my mind, what seemed to be lovable for me and peculiar to other kinds.

...and thanks to my little sister that helps me finish this pic by drawing random strikes at the bottom right of it, which later inspires me to add even more strikes. thanks for always being there for me just like the whole family. I'm glad to have you guys around.

thank you.

another fan rant.

...it quite shocks me that this existed. I don't really know what to say. SP astronauts are really amazing and... garsh... that magazine should definitely be continued, so best luck and thank you so much for all members of the crew for putting up such an incredible first issue. wonder how next issue will be now... haha. :'D -kicked-

...too excited to not put this here, so... sorry again for the rant, guys. I'll just continue reading the magazine...

garsh, I'm so excited I'll ignore my homework. Simple Plan wins! 8D -slapped-

one year being jetlagged! ;D

disclaimer: Jet Lag © 2011 by Simple Plan, Nolan Sipe, and Ryan Petersen; performed by Simple Plan. link for the video is here.

[pic is finished on April 17, 2012; posted on April 25, 2012]

happy first anniversary to Jet Lag! :)

the first song that got me to know about this amazing band, so it surely will always mean something to me. ...and apparently, it's the most well-known song from the guys, too, I believe -at least in my place, it is-, so... congrats on such a great hit...? heh. ...also meant to post this earlier but didn't get the chance. -look down-

in the end, thanks for coming and hope you all enjoy this post and had a fun day, guys. time to listen to some Jet Lag now, perhaps? ;3

astronaut doodle.

[pic is finished on April 11, 2012; posted on April 13, 2012]

disclaimer: Astronaut © 2011 by Simple Plan, Jim Irvin, and Julian Emery; performed by Simple Plan. link for the video is here if you're interested. :)

...made this during class cause I literally felt like an astronaut back then. good thing I'm not entirely stuck between the gap of art block and writer's block this one time, so I can at least try to wash the feeling away by doing this sketch. heh.

and, erm... sorry for the rawness and my inability to draw the astronaut costume correctly, guys. ^_^; and hope that you guys can keep on giving your best to struggle life even though loneliness comes for what always seemed like a too long visit sometimes. also hope that you guys can handle the pain that it can certainly cause and even find happiness in it. ;)

and looking at this piece, I think I am, indeed, happy cause I can finally make a fanart for this song cause there sure are a lot of great fanarts for the same song out there -specifically in the band's official website-. heh. I guess I just feel pleased for being able to work on this amazing theme as well. just hope that this one turns out nicely and can at least capture the feeling of the song.

...well, even if it doesn't, I sure enjoy the drawing process -it's an escape from the astronaut-like feeling, once again ;P-, so I guess that's an important point and hopefully you guys enjoy the result, too. and again, thank you so much for taking your time to view my drawing and read my posting, everyone. -sigh-

thank you for caring so much about me and make me feel less lonely all this time, guys. :') hope that I can contribute something nice into your lives, too. heh. as for now, all I can say is probably only thank you... again. :') 

I can't pretend that I'm alright...

this post might be mood-wrecking, so it's suggested that you hit the back button now if you're not ready for any possible bad impacts. thank you before and thank you for any decision. :)

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"...and you can't change me.

cause we lost it all; nothing lasts forever..."

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[pic is finished on March 27, 2012; posted on April 1, 2012]

disclaimer: Perfect © 2002 by Simple Plan, performed by Simple Plan.

...nothing lasts forever, indeed.

sometimes, everything just has to fall apart; no matter how hard you try to pretend that nothing ever happened, no matter how hard you try to convince yourself that you're alright, no matter how hard you try to not break down and... -sigh-

to the ones that I love the most, sorry... for everything; especially for my flawful sense that keeps on failing, that keeps on disappointing. -sigh- and thank you so much for trying your best to love me for who I really am and for always being there; and sorry again for everything.

I love you, too, so please don't ever go cause of all the imperfections that I have... just don't...